Dear Journal:

Today I talked with Jamey online. She wanted to know if I wanted to go for a walk with her. I said sure and told her to just come on over. She did come over but she said a friend had called and asked her to go to the movies with him. She did. She said she'd call me after the movie. The movie began at 10:00 PM it is now 2:45 AM and Jamey has not called. I really hate it when people don't keep their promises. It makes me feel like I'm a piece of shit and that nobody wants to be around me. I'm really kind of depressed right now. I hate being alone. It really bothers me. I'm not afraid of being alone (like actual fear) but I am "afriad" of being alone in the sense that nobody wants to be with me. Don't get me wrong, I do like my Private Time which I get everyday; it's my sleep. I'm just afraid of being alone. I don't want to die alone. I want somebody to love me. To hold me and tell me that everything will be okay. I cry to you from the darkest depths. Do you hear my cry?