Dear Journal:

Have you seen me lately? Can you tell me what you see in me? Have you seen me lately? All I see is what I used to see… I found my self in conversation trying to convince what you’re about, I don’t know why, but I couldn’t get it out. And an old friend, yesterday, who told me how my love inspired her to love like I love you. What is half my fire? You were my every desire. My God, I never meant to be this. Father hold me I can’t see my self. Have you seen me lately? Can you tell me what you see in me? Have you seen me lately? All I see is what I used to be.

How does it feel To treat me like you do When you've laid your hands upon me And told me who you are I thought I was mistaken I thought I heard your words Tell me how do I feel Tell me now how do I feel How does it feel How should I feel Tell me how does it feel To treat me like you do Those who came before me Lived through their vocations From the past until completion They will turn away no more And I still find it so hard To say what I need to say But I'm quite sure that you'll tell me Just how I should feel today I see a ship in the harbor I can and shall obey But if it wasn't for your misfortunes I'd be a heavenly person today And I thought I was mistaken And I thought I heard you speak Tell me how do I feel Tell me now how should I feel Now I stand here waiting I thought I told you to leave me While I walked down to the beach Tell me how does it feel When your heart grows cold

Fathers hands were lined with dirt

From long days in the field

And mothers hands are serving meals

In a cafe on Main Street

With mouths to feed

Just trying to keep clothing on our backs

And all I hear about is

How it's so bad, it's so bad

It's too bad, it's too bad

Too late, so wrong, so long

It's too bad that we had no time to rewind

Let's walk, let's talk

Let's talk

You left without saying goodbye

Although I'm sure you tried

You call the house from time to time

To make sure we're alive

But you weren't there

Right when I'm needing you the most

And now I dream about it

How it's so bad, it's so bad

It's too bad, it's too bad

Too late, so wrong, so long

It's too bad that we had no time to rewind

Let's walk, let's talk

Let's talk

Father's hands are lined with guilt

For tearing us apart

Guess it turned out in the end

Just look at where we are

Made it out, still got clothing on our backs

And now I scream about it

How it's so bad, it's so bad

It's too bad, it's too bad

Too late, so wrong, so long

It's too bad that we had no time to rewind

Let's walk, let's talk

Let's talk

No time, last one, let's go

Sucker love is heaven sent.

You pucker up, our passion's spent.

My hearts a tart, your body's rent.

My body's broken, yours is spent.

Carve your name into my arm.

Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed.

Cuz there's nothing else to do,

Every me and every you.

Sucker love, a box I choose.

No other box I choose to use.

Another love I would abuse,

No circumstances could excuse.

In the shape of things to come.

Too much poison come undone.

Cuz there's nothing else to do,

Every me and every you.

Every me and every you,

Every Me...he

Sucker love is known to swing.

Prone to cling and waste these things.

Pucker up for heavens sake.

There's never been so much at stake.

I serve my head up on a plate.

It's only comfort, calling late.

Cuz there's nothing else to do,

Every me and every you.

Every me and every you,

Every Me...he

Every me and every you,

Every Me...he

Like the naked leads the blind.

I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind.

Sucker love I always find,

Someone to bruise and leave behind.

All alone in space and time.

There's nothing here but what here's here's mine.

Something borrowed, something blue.

Every me and every you.

Every me and every you,

Every Me...he

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't. You can't make your heart feel something it won't. Here in the dark, in these lonely hours. I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power. But you won't, no you won't. 'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't.

No use in tryin'. No no no. Too bad, soo sad. A waste of time, effort, energy. Cut your wrists dear boy, do others a favor. It hurts to get fucked. Sorry. *Snorts* Yeah, sorry's for losers. And I'm not one. I don't sit there and take abuse, I dish it out. I don't sit there and say, "Oops. Didn't mean to." I sit there and say, "Life sucks, so bend over and take it like a man." It's a race, and there isn't room for someone in second place. I'm sure you'll understand. I'm in a hurry to get things done. I rush and rush 'till life's no fun. All I really gotta do is live and die, but I'm in a hurry and don't know why. I don't need your sympathy

There's nothing you can say or do for me

And I don't want a miracle

You'll never change for no one

And I hear your reasons why

Where did you sleep last night?

And was he worth it, was he worth it?

Chorus:

I'm strong enough to live without you

Strong enough and I quit crying

Long enough now I'm strong enough

To know you gotta go

Chorus 2:

There's no more to say

So save your breath and walk away

No matter what I hear you say

I'm strong enough to know you gotta go

So you feel misunderstood

Baby have I got news for you

On being used, I could write the book

But you don't wanna hear about it

'Cause I've been losing sleep

And you've been going cheap

And he ain't worth half of me it's true

I'm telling you, that

(chorus)

Come hell or waters high

You'll never see me cry

This is our last goodbye, it's true

I'm telling you, now