Dear Journal:

I’m depressed now. I always get that way when I write in this damned thing. It’s something that brings out the fears in my persona that I don’t want to show. Weakness is not a good thing. I have to be the strong wall of support for all. It’s my destiny, and I cannot change that. I weep in private for those who hurt, for those who cry inside but cannot outside, and for the world in general, privately in my own heart. I try to pretend that everything’s okay, but it’s not. Nothing is okay. War is not okay. Politics are not okay. My health is not okay. Nothing is okay. I just wish there was an “okay” in this world. But let me tell you one thing, I’m very proud and I’m going to stand my ground. Time will never run out and nobody will run out. Let the freedom ring. Let the white doves sing. Let the whole world know that today is a day of reckoning. Smile at me. We’re always living so crazy and sexy and cool and we begin to love it. It’s just those rainy days. Until the sun shines, just smile. Smile for me. Smile for you. Smile for the world. Nobody loves the love. Baby, just handle it. Don’t chase the waterfalls. Let them come to you. Let the beauty approach you and embrace you.

Give me a reason to keep believing that everything isn’t misleading. Kiss those clouds on those rainy days. Dear Lord, will you shower my pain, let rain, let rain on me, while I cherish the air I breathe. I’m an angel that just can’t fly. Let me believe. Wash away those tears. Wash away those fears. Let me spread my wings and open my wings and let me soar again. And for those who can’t take it, stand up. In the words of Marvin Gaye, war is not the answer.

Unforgettable… That’s what I am. Unforgettable, both near and far. Like a song of love that clings to me, how the thought of me does things to you. Never before, has someone been more unforgettable in every way. And forever more, that’s how I’ll stay. That’s why darling, it’s incredible, that someone so unforgettable, thinks that you are unforgettable too. No, never before, has someone been more…Unforgettable, in every way. And forever more, that’s how I’ll stay. That’s why darling, it’s incredible, that someone so unforgettable, thinks that you are unforgettable too.

Respectfully Yours,

Dustin T. McCauley, Future Doctor of Pharmacology and Internal Medicine